Updated: Apr 1
I do enough. I have enough. I am enough.
Sometimes, when we feel shitty about ourselves, we can try to overcompensate by overachieving. I guess it’s our way of convincing ourselves, and whoever else is watching, that we are worthwhile; of saying, “I do have value, dammit – I mean look at all I’ve accomplished!”
We can get so busy “proving our worth,” that we don’t ever really get to enjoy the present moment. We put off things we enjoy in the quest to be more productive. Then we often find ourselves disconnected from family and friends, which usually makes us feel even worse … then we feel disconnected from life! It’s exhausting…
And, I don’t know about you, but when I’m in this cycle, I never really do get to a point where I think, “Ok, I’ve done enough. I’ve shown my worth and I feel better about myself now.” Nope, that’s the bitch of it; that shit just keeps feeding on itself – and then we’re spiraling down… Ugh…
So, today, I’m asking you to just be aware. Be conscious of what you’re doing and why you’re doing it. Ask yourself: Does this really need to get done right now? Am I going overboard for those elusive brownie points (that I probably won’t even get)? Am I doing this to avoid feeling something? Is this even something I have control over?
And, P the fuck S, if you do see something like this, the last thing I want you to do is judge yourself. What you deserve is some extra love; give yourself some grace and your own fucking brownie points for dealing with your shit! It is not easy! Be kind to yourself. You are enough. Trust me. You. Are. Enough.
Spiral level: Pretty Shitty and up
Use when feeling: lethargic, overwhelmed, frustrated, mad at self, powerless